y so creepy James
What?
Gone
When he heard the news, after everyone returned…well almost everyone, James’ world stopped. No spinning, no slow motion, nothing. Everything froze after he heard the words, forgetting who even uttered them.
It didn’t matter, nothing mattered. In those few short moments, everything fell apart and crumbled to dust.
“Aidric’s dead, James.”
This man, this invincible man, the sole reason he started fighting for any of this, gone. The closest thing he ever had to a father was now dead and there was nothing he could do about it.
He wasn’t even there to try to do something about it…he wasn’t even fucking there. This was the worst, the guilt on top of the grief, the nagging voice in the back of his head telling him that he could have done something, that his hero would not be dead if he had been there.
He’s dead because of you, you know. You just had to stay here like the pathetic man you are. You didn’t even try. And now he’s dead. What’s going to happen now? This whole thing is probably going to collapse now and you are all going to be tortured and killed, just like everyone you ever tried to save. You are nothing but a failure.
No one followed him to his room when he walked off and closed the door, there was nothing they could do.
James sat on his bed in silence, utterly deafening silence. If he attempted to speak, the already fragile man would surely fall apart at the seams. All he could do was suffer in silence and mourn the man who was their greatest hero as well as their greatest villain. Not to mention the self-loathing that was sure to follow.
James had been very far from being a happy man for a long time, and now that distance grew a lot farther.
Coping
A month had passed since she had gone and his extra money had run out…it was time to get out again and face the world.
Surprisingly, nothing much had changed even if it felt like a new world to him. He still slept like she was beside him, but he no longer felt the need to cry…she wouldn’t have wanted that.
Fortune protested his return (Sugar, we don’t need ya singin’ sad songs…the people come here to get away from all that) and insisted he take a few more days off, but James refused…any longer and he would have gone insane.
He had to get back to some semblance of normalcy, he had to move on, had to keep himself from crumbling to dust.
He had to stop blaming himself.
Another month and he saved up enough money to afford to go out again. He went to the bar and chatted with Morgan for a bit, hollowly flirting with the other waitresses there. They were nice and played along, even if they knew that there was no sincerity behind his smile anymore.
Just go through the motions James and everything will be all right.
He found himself at Lulu’s, talking to the woman he knew long ago…he was surprisingly still in her good graces and was very sympathetic to his situation and very willing to help him out of his ‘slump;.
He was now in a dirty bed inside a dirty hotel with a woman who’s name he forgot and a small stack of cash on the nightstand. She was on top of him, moaning in rhythm, telling him how good he was even if he wasn’t doing anything. Just going through the motions.
She never looked into his eyes for too long, his gaze was empty and unsettling. He left when it was over and found sleep in his empty bed.
He spent even more time at the cafe now, idly chatting with the others…they were all he had left now.
They were the only ones keeping him here, or he would have joined Angie a long time ago.
rolling-weighted-dice asked: Oi~ James~ Lucky says you were look'n fer a job?
Yeah? What’s it t’ya?
blindmanwalking asked: It's really better if you're not around. Trust me on that.
Okay Maitho….just be careful.
blindmanwalking asked: No, it's probably best if I don't stay with you. Thank you for the offer, though. All I'm asking is that if something happens to me that you take care of my garden. Ask one of the girls for help if you have to.
Oh my, ya’ve really got yerself inta somethin’ deep this time. I’ll be around.
blindmanwalking asked: James... we're going to have some trouble. Soon.
Oh? What is it and do you need to stay here for a while?
Hey, James, I think I found your groom’s cake!
THIS AIN’T WHAT I MEANT BY WAITIN’ ‘TIL THINGS CALM DOWN MORGAN.
But it actually looks very nice. I’ll keep it in consideration. Thank ya~
(Source: all-abt-her)
So looks’ like yer life calmed down a bit too. Smart man, backin’ outta the insanity over ‘ere while ya could.
So when’s the weddin’?
Whoa whoa whoa…let’s not get ahead of ourselves here.
I mean we haven’t said….those words yet.And thank ya Morgan…we’ll need lots of it.
An’ ya accus’d me of gettin’ hitched an’ borin’~ [/Snickers] I don’ approve of ya turn’ into a whipped Jones, but I’m a gonna kick yer a** if yer gonna be tip’toe’n like some kinda Nancy over the subject.
Go drink some’a Morgans courage juice ya dumbnuts.
I ain’t tiptoein’! I just…a few years maybe?
….Thats f*cking tip toe’n James.
‘disappointed.
Shut up Price! I’m new ta this…I really love her y’know…I just want ta wait ‘til things calm down ‘fore I start thinkin’ bout marriage.
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Hello Price. I take it things are well?
Ya could say that James. It’s almost freak’n me out how nuthin’s been blowin’ up in my face yet-
Erm. Figuratively of course.
Haven’ see you in a while, where’ve you been hidin’?
Oh, I’ve been going to a few birthdays here and there ‘round tha Slums, but mainly I’ve just been stayin’ in with Angie. I never thought I’d like that domestic life.
So looks’ like yer life calmed down a bit too. Smart man, backin’ outta the insanity over ‘ere while ya could.
So when’s the weddin’?
Whoa whoa whoa…let’s not get ahead of ourselves here.
I mean we haven’t said….those words yet.And thank ya Morgan…we’ll need lots of it.
An’ ya accus’d me of gettin’ hitched an’ borin’~ [/Snickers] I don’ approve of ya turn’ into a whipped Jones, but I’m a gonna kick yer a** if yer gonna be tip’toe’n like some kinda Nancy over the subject.
Go drink some’a Morgans courage juice ya dumbnuts.
I ain’t tiptoein’! I just…a few years maybe?
